Casual sex
Written on 2022-07-24 at 11:34 p.m.

It’s me again. Not much has changed since the last entry, to be honest. I’m still the same, jealous of Terri sleeping with another person. It’s a guy and she said it’s only casual but she enjoys it so I guess that’s why it bothers me. I don’t know if that’s the real cause of my anxiety or what it is. I’ve been feeling extremely depressed and anxious the last week, and it’s almost unmanageable.

I really don’t understand why I still have feelings for Terri. It’s really annoying to me. She doesn’t put any effort in being my friend so it makes it really hard to understand why I’m attached to her. I’m still attached I guess because I know if at the right time, we could have sex. We haven’t in 8 months though. I just wish I could cut all ties with her to be honest. I think that would be the healthiest thing to do. I don’t know if I ever will have the strength or courage to do that.

I did download Tinder, talked to a few guys. Thought I was going to meet up with 2 but I didn’t. Would probably just be casual sex, I’m not really interested in another relationship right now-not with my mental health like this. I’ve also never had sex with a guy without it being a threesome so when the time comes, it should be interesting.

Anyways I think I’ll keep writing in here daily for my mental health and I’m gonna run a bath or shower and go to bed.


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My name is Shandi. I am a 15 year old Canadian. I am in Level One, and I go to MMC. I am a soft-hearted person because I care a lot for people. I am shy, but when you get to know me, you'll think differently(most of the time). I have amazing friends, and they complete my life!

Loves Billy Talent.bright colors. Summer Vacation.drawing. being late nights.television. computer

smoke.drugs.early mornings. badmoods.homework.failing. being sad.plastics. people who don't care about how other feel.losing my best friend for a stupid reason. when my friends are upset at me. not knowing what to do. rainy days.